Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Dear Kyla...

My little wonder, at exactly this time, six years ago, you came into my life and changed it forever.

It was at this moment, on a Tuesday morning in Tampa, that I became your daddy and that you decided, entirely on your own, that you were coming into this world.

You don't know this, but your mom and I got to the hospital at 11am; and by 1:23am, you were here. LOL and the nurse said that in "eight hours or so we'd have ourselves a little baby..." 

Boy did you prove her wrong.

I remember it like it was yesterday. In my mind's eye, I still remember the moments leading up to your arrival. I remember holding you for the first time. I remember looking at you and for the first time realizing - and feeling - true and unconditional love. 

You were teaching me how to be a man even from your first breath. 

Kyla, I just wanted to write you this note so that someday, you'll know just how deeply I cherish being your daddy. I've been luckier in this life than any one man should be. I've been given chances and breaks and opportunities when at times I did not deserve them and because of you, I've found clarity, purpose, reason and through your unconditional love for me, I've learned how to love unconditionally. I've learned that I'm better than insecurities. I've learned that love can truly overcome anything and I've found that, while life is not a fairy tale, there can be a happily ever after if we're really willing to try to find it.

You've taught me how to really love. I mean, how to really, truly love. 

Because of you, Kyla, I've found that inner 'something' that presses me on and inspires me to try just a bit harder, to reach for just a bit better and to try to fix the things that ought to be held to a higher standard. 

Now, I know these are big words, Kyla. I don't know for sure if you understand what they all mean, but I know that you're incredibly bright and so gifted and smart that I'm pretty certain you understand what I'm trying to say. 

Because of you, Kyla, I've got a reason to live. Every day. To be the best at work and at life so that I can give you all that you deserve. You are part of my soul and my heart, and are the very best thing I've ever been a part of... ever. 

I've seen you touch hearts and inspire lives. I've seen you unleash things in people which touch their hearts and cause love to grow... and in some cases, I've seen you be the catalyst which heals so that love can grow and evolve again. I've seen you do so many amazing things which people 40 years older than you could only hope they could do... 

... and today, at this time, you've turned six years old. It's pretty amazing, really. You do things every day which, well, are just incredible. 

Kyla, you are special. You're here for a reason. Life will reveal its purpose to you in time, but until then, know that just by being here you're already making a difference. You've made a difference in me. You've made a difference in so many. It's because of this - and for so many other reasons we've yet to discover - that I'm honored to be your daddy, and I look forward to sharing whatever adventures this life brings us as we live this life.

 It's a gift.

You're a gift. 

And I'm so proud of you for who you are and for what you one day will be.

But until that time... be a kid. Have fun. Learn to love, laugh and live. And be a good girl for your mom, teachers and more. 

Happy Birthday, Kyla. I love you more than I ever thought I was capable of loving anything... 

... and because of you, I've found that love... is just beginning. 

I'll see you soon. I can't wait to hold you in my arms again. And to play this webkins.com game you've telling me so much about lately. 

Enjoy your day of Kylabration... All of your family here in DC and beyond love you so much and can not wait to see you soon... 

With all my love and all of my heart, 


1 comment:

  1. Rachel5:45 AM

    Beautifully said. She is a special little girl!