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Thursday, September 22, 2005

Clorox bleaches things whiter than snow...

Funny thing about Clorox... especially the Clorox that comes combined with some other sort of cleaner...

It really cleans.

And it really stinks.

Tonight, I write as the fragarance of Clorox permiates my mind. I know the smell has past, but the memory of the scent lingers, reminding me that sometimes, when you clean, you have to deal with some unpleasantness... but the after effects are lasting, satisfying and most of all, clean. And so, with the hum of the washer and dryer behind me, the sounds of some "Elmo" episode in the background, I write for the first time in several days...

The last few days have been days of realization for me. I'd say since last Friday through today... I've realized how blessed I am in this life. I have a wonderful daughter. I have an amazing signifigant other who - in spite of some things - loves me and I her... and she loves my daughter. I am aware that the things you most love in life take work... and I'm aware that the things that are most special in life should be cherished - and held close to your heart.

And, all in all, for the first time in some time, I am so thankful to have found a peace.

I was cleaning up some things today - sort of getting things settled more or less... when I came across a card which reminded me about the true nature of love...

Without compromising the very special nature of it, it basically said that "words" can't describe somethings. And how right that is.

Kyla doesn't need words to let me know she loves me. I see it. I sense it. It's in a hug... or a kiss that she now has learned how to give. I know she senses it from me...

It's the feeling I get when I see someone very special to me for the first time in a week. It's the feeling I get when I leave that same someone...

It's a feeling that has no words which can describe it. And, it's that same feeling which, in some ways, is kinda like an emotional Clorox bleaching...

It makes things new again. And luckly for me, I've been able to begin again...

Maybe the clorox fumes have gotten to my head. LOL.